I have been listening to our Chicks Connect membership and for some of you, times are really tight financially. One of the reasons that I wanted to create an Affiliate Program with Chicks Connect is so that I could PAY women! This is very important to me. Read on to see why.
I want you to know that I hear you. You may not know my story, but I not only hear you, I know what it feels like.
I know what it feels like to question my decision about moving forward with my own business and passion for life versus getting a REAL Job or going back to teaching/administration.
I know what it feels like to have people close to me think that I am crazy and creating an unstable life for my family.
I know what it feels like to gather up all of my jewelry and give it to my husband to take into a Pawn Shop for cash.
I know what it feels like to come home and find that my electricity has been turned off and my boys have a play date coming over. (Yes... embarrassing to say the least.)
I know what it feels like to have my name on a list of homes being auctioned off on the court house steps. Not once but 3 times.
I know what it feels like to have my Minivan repossessed and fearful that I would be out with my 5 year old twin boys and unable to get them home.
I know what it feels like when the Repo man calls and says, "You'd better get on your walking shoes Julie, cuz you ain't gonna have anything left to drive by the time I'm finished with you!" (I am not sure he actually used such slang but that is how I remember it. It was awful!)
I know what it feels like to be the mother of twin boys and wonder how I am going to feed them. I remember going without food for fear that there wouldn't be enough and that I needed to ration it.
I know what it feels like to go into multimillion dollar homes and design and sell them custom closets and return to living in my apartment at the age of 40!
I know what it feels like to be sad, helpless, scared, and alone among a sea of people.
I know what it feels like to have a panic attack in the library with my children and go into the Doctor and have them attach a heart monitor to see what the heck is wrong with me. (Pure Fear!)
I know what it feels like to want to blame it all on my husband, leave him, and hide from the world with my little boys. (Glad that Elizabeth talked me out of that one. Today happily married!)
I know what it feels like to be defeated, embarrassed to show up in the world and offer Peace of Mind (my organizing and coaching services) when my life was so chaotic and falling apart.
I know what it feels like to have creditors calling day and night passing judgement about me as a person. (or so I felt)
I know what it feels like to let people down.
I know what it feels like to lose everything; our life as we knew it, businesses, homes, vehicles, almost a marriage.
I know what it feels like to keep suiting up and showing up in the world, in my businesses, and in the lives of my boys and husband.
I know what it feels like to be humble enough to share my story, my experiences in the hope that it touches the heart of someone else.
I know what it feels like to have my heart so full of self love and love for others, that I want to share it with the world but not knowing the vehicle for which to carry the message. (Barbara De Angelis terms this as "Divine Discomfort" which perfectly described how I felt during this period)
I know what it feels like to to step out each day on faith. Knowing that I am not in control and that I can only do the next right thing.
I know what it feels like to question the negative thoughts in my mind and to stay positive even when fear creeps in.
I know what it feels like to receive amazing gifts of support from a loving network of people in my life today.
I know what it feels like to be curious about my spirituality and how to trust my gut and guidance as I move forward with the growth of Chicks Connect.
Although building and growing a business is a challenging task, my greater task is to get out of my own way, stay connected to my higher power, listen, believe in him and in my own capabilities, and to always do the next right thing. It is no mistake that I know what it feels like.
The next right thing for me to do is to pay your affiliate commissions for January RIGHT NOW and not wait until March 10th, and then pay you for February's on March 10th. My heart is telling me that you could use the little bit of extra right now so I am listening....
I may not have illustrated how YOU are feeling right now but I bet if you comment below as to what those feelings are; either I have felt them or someone else who is reading this has felt them. You are not alone. Even though I thought I was, it was only because I was afraid to share, to open up, and afraid to look for help and support. You have a sea of people at your grasp if you only ask.
Much love to all of you whether you are a member or an affiliate to Chicks Connect or not. We are here for YOU!
Jewels ~ Chief Chick Chicks Connect